I Think

I think

that I exist,

I think

that it’s real,

I think

that we’re alive,

I think

all of that,

but what do I know?

Nothing.

Because knowledge is

never definite,

as it could all just be

an illusion;

rain, sun, snow,

the world,

the stars…

We’ll never know

whether our eyes

are actually there

or whether all of this

is a dream.

I think I can touch it

but I know I can feel it.

I think I can see it

but I know I can think it.

Real Net Blogger Award

Thanks so much to ANewChapter for the nomination!

RULES

Thank the person who nominated you
Answer the questions set by them
Nominate 7 more people
Set them 7 questions to answer

 

Questions to Me

If you were a colour, which colour would be and why?
 
I think I would be purple; not just because it’s my favourite colour, but because there’s not many things you think of that are purple. There are some things (lavender and violets) but they are in a different shade; what can you think of that is really purple? Because there is hardly anything to compare the colour to, it means that it can be whatever your mind plays up. It is different and set out from the other colours — most of which have boxes that they fit into, but purple doesn’t. It doesn’t fit into a box; it does its own thing, and I like that about it.

Imagine you can time travel, would go to the future or to the past?

That’s a hard one. Going to the past would be fun because I could tell people the future and then they’d be amazed when it happened. I could also win the lottery. But going to the future would also be interesting, as I’d be able to see whether humanity ever redeems itself or whether we destroy ourselves. A bit dark, but it’d be interesting to see. I think I’d rather go to the past as I’m not exploring unknown territory; therefore, I can fit in quite easily, whereas if I go into the future, I might come off a bit weird.

Which song best describes you/your emotions?

Right now, I’m thinking Numb by Linking Park. The lyrics are about pressure from someone and becoming numb to what they are subjected to; and everything is a mistake to this other person. I feel this way a lot, like to someone in my life, everything I do is a mistake. I try to please him but I can’t because his expectations are beyond reality. I’ve gotten used to it so I guess I’m numb now. And, as the lyrics say, I would rather be more like me and less like him. I would rather be who I want to be, but I don’t think I can be.

If you could have any eye colour, what would you choose?

Any eye colour? Although I love having blue eyes, I would quite like to have Elizabeth Taylor-esque eyes; violet. They’re so beautiful yet gentle. I think they’d be really nice to have.

Would you rather read people’s minds or be invisible?

I already am invisible (hahaha) so I think definitely reading people’s minds. I would love to know exactly what someone thought of me, because so many people are polite and not knowing what people think of me triggers my anxiety. To know would be to accept.

If you could have dinner with any TV show/book/film character, who would it be?

I don’t really know. Uhhh… Helena from Orphan Black! Because she loves food so would just wolf it down and then she’d call me her sistra and we’d just be cool friends and she’d kill people for me.

Did a historical event happen on your birthday? (doesn’t have to be the year you were born)

I just looked it up and a lot of sad stuff happened on that day. But I’m only going to be talking about positive stuff! 27 May 1943, the ballpoint pen was patented!! Isn’t that cool? 27 May 1937, The Golden Gate Bridge is opened to pedestrian traffic and more than 200,000 pedestrians walked across it! 27 May 1950, Frank Sinatra makes his TV debut on NBC’s “star-spangled review”. A lot of bad stuff happened too but let’s just think of the good stuff!

My Nominees:

I’m really bad at nominating people, especially when they’ve already been nominated, so apologies if you’ve already been nominated (which you probably have been) but I just need to nominate someone, and new questions!

Thewalkofthoughts
ofchocolateandlemons
littlelifeofrachel
mymindspeaksaloud
mintyfreshie
wondrousnightrambler

These are only some nominees, not quite seven, that I just stumbled upon when looking through things but anyone else can do it too!

My Questions

Has anyone ever inspired you to change your life?
Do you believe in superstitions? (If so, which ones?)
Antique or modern?
Paintbrush, pen, or microphone? Which would you pick, and why?
Which of the seven sins best describes you?
If you were told that the world is going to end in a week, what would you do?
Strangest thing that has ever happened to you?

Lia

Fake Selflessness

True selflessness is the act of not caring for yourself, only for other people. None of us are truly selfless; we eat, we rest, we wear clothes — but that is fine. It cannot be expected for any of us to be truly selfless; it is an impossible task. Some are more selfless than others though and these people often fail to see their own selflessness. These types of people are amazing. Actually, I’m friends with a couple of these, and I am so so proud to be their friend.

The thing that really gets me, though, is fake selflessness. This is when someone does a few favours for you, for nothing, so you assume they’re being kind and considerate, and then they later bring back these favours to haunt you. They use these favours against you to make them look golden and to make you look like someone who doesn’t appreciate them enough. Real selfless people won’t even mention what they’ve done for you; rather, they’d simply shrug it off. Know the difference. Don’t underestimate fake selflessness, either, because they can destroy you just with a few twists of their tongue. Real selflessness can bring you back though. It’s just a matter of who you hang around with.

I’d say I’m neither, but often I need a lot of support from people because of my condition, and some of my friends will give me that and make me smile, whilst others will help and then use it against me. It makes me sad when people do that, but happy when people do another little thing to make my day.

Do you guys know anyone that fits into these two categories?

How would you cope with a ‘fake selfless’ friend?

Thank you for reading,

Lia 🙂