Opportunities and Anxiety

I was so terrified, when I got told of this opportunity, that it wouldn’t happen because not many opportunities have ever amounted to anything. However, last week I met up with a woman who told me she wanted to write for her.

Today, I wrote for them for the first time. I have bad anxiety so every time anything good happens, I always question a lot of things afterwards. Was I annoying? Did my writing suck? Do they hate me? My mind always goes to the negative side of things, rather than admitting that I managed to do a few tasks today that were out of my comfort zone.

For one, I ordered lunch, which is something my mum told me to do. I was so terrified of doing it; I never order for myself because of my anxiety. My mum also wants me to go on public transport alone soon.

I also wrote from prompts that weren’t my usual writing, but I enjoyed it. I love it when I’m given a prompt that makes me write something unexpected. However, I still worry that perhaps it was not good. Perhaps, they will wonder why they wanted me to write for them in the first place. This is my anxiety.

I get so excited about opportunities, yet I also get so anxious. I think this opportunity is good though and that I might become a better writer by doing it. I just have to let myself win, not the anxiety. Before, the anxiety has won, and I have given up trying. But I am going to try my best to let myself have a chance.

Lia, you can do this!

4 thoughts on “Opportunities and Anxiety

  1. I relate a lot to new experiences heightening anxiety. It’s worrying entering a new place and having to adapt yourself to it, but I always try and remember every other time I adapted to a new experience and how I’ve done it before, so I can do it again. It’s easy to give way to anxiety and avoid it, but how can we ever expect to achieve anything if we sit back and wait for something to subside? You’re totally doing the right thing by pushing yourself out of your comfort zone – it’s scary at first, but the feeling you get when you get through to the other side is the best feeling in the world 😊

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    • yeah it’s really hard and a part of me wants to hide away but I think this is good for me and I need to not let my anxiety get the better of me! thanks for all your support as always ❤️

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