I’ve lived in the same house for my entire life — 18 years.

Today my parents accepted an offer on our house. It means that it’s real, that I’m actually going to be moving somewhere. A chalet bungalow. I don’t want to leave this house. I really don’t. It’s terrifying, the thought of never being in it again… the house I spend most of my days in, all of my nights in.

Why do I have to leave it?

My heart is crumbling, piece by piece, because this is the house I have lived in for so long. Every second I think about the new house, a part of my heart vanishes, because it’s only going to get closer to the day I have to leave.

I don’t know if I can do it. I’ve dealt with changes before, but never such a massive one. This is the biggest change I will ever face and how can I live with it? I don’t know.

All I know is that it’s scaring me so much. I’ve never felt this scared before, because I always had the security of returning to this house. Now that’s going to be gone too.

5 thoughts on “Moving

  1. This sounds like such a difficult situation. As someone who has only moved a few times in my life, I couldn’t imagine leaving the home I currently live in for somewhere else, especially knowing I was never going to see it again.

    Are there things your parents could do to make the transition easier for you? Could you visit the new place before you move in, or have photos of it that you can use to familiarise yourself with the move? Sometimes it can help to have a visual reminder of the changes that’re going to happen to your life.

    I hope the move is a positive experience overall, despite your anxiousness. Fingers crossed you’ll settle in quickly. Good luck with the move!

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    • I do visit places they look sometimes and I’ll probably visit the place they choose again but it doesn’t make it easier for me, it just makes it more real, thank you for the support though


  2. Genuinely the thought of moving is absolutely terrifying to me. I’m moving out to a residential college in September, and the thought of not being in my house, my room, my home — it’s really scary for me. Really well written XX

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