Becoming an Adult

The day we become an adult is not the day we turn eighteen, but the day we get our last exam result, and then think “well – now what?” Most of my friends are going to university (some going to extremely high-ranked ones) so they have a little bit of a layout for their life (not much, but at least enough for the next few years) and some even know where they intend to go with their life. They have it all planned out.

But not everybody does. Not everybody knows where their life is going to lead them.

One of the most stressful questions to hear, as someone who suffers from anxiety and depression, is “what are you going to do now?” They mean well but it makes me think about the future and where I’m going and where I’m not going and what’s happening and what’s not happening and — you get the picture. It’s terrifying.

I got good results, results I was happy with, but I happen to be friends with geniuses, which often makes me feel like less of a person too, even though they’re wonderful and I’m happy for them. I just happened to pick up smart friends. I guess I must be the dumb friend, to them, if you think about it. So I’m worried about my results too.

I worry about whether my life has a direction but I don’t want it to, yet I do, all at once. I want to study a degree but I don’t, all at once. I don’t want to be a drifter, I want to be a sailor! But I can’t be. I will never be a sailor, no matter how hard I try to control my ship; it will crash and I will drift on one piece of wood left.

I want to become something, but I don’t.

I’m never going to be what people expect me to be, or rather, what they want me to be. I’m not going to be what I want to be either. Because I will never be strong enough to sail. I just won’t be.

Lia

Real Net Blogger Award

Thanks so much to ANewChapter for the nomination!

RULES

Thank the person who nominated you
Answer the questions set by them
Nominate 7 more people
Set them 7 questions to answer

 

Questions to Me

If you were a colour, which colour would be and why?
 
I think I would be purple; not just because it’s my favourite colour, but because there’s not many things you think of that are purple. There are some things (lavender and violets) but they are in a different shade; what can you think of that is really purple? Because there is hardly anything to compare the colour to, it means that it can be whatever your mind plays up. It is different and set out from the other colours — most of which have boxes that they fit into, but purple doesn’t. It doesn’t fit into a box; it does its own thing, and I like that about it.

Imagine you can time travel, would go to the future or to the past?

That’s a hard one. Going to the past would be fun because I could tell people the future and then they’d be amazed when it happened. I could also win the lottery. But going to the future would also be interesting, as I’d be able to see whether humanity ever redeems itself or whether we destroy ourselves. A bit dark, but it’d be interesting to see. I think I’d rather go to the past as I’m not exploring unknown territory; therefore, I can fit in quite easily, whereas if I go into the future, I might come off a bit weird.

Which song best describes you/your emotions?

Right now, I’m thinking Numb by Linking Park. The lyrics are about pressure from someone and becoming numb to what they are subjected to; and everything is a mistake to this other person. I feel this way a lot, like to someone in my life, everything I do is a mistake. I try to please him but I can’t because his expectations are beyond reality. I’ve gotten used to it so I guess I’m numb now. And, as the lyrics say, I would rather be more like me and less like him. I would rather be who I want to be, but I don’t think I can be.

If you could have any eye colour, what would you choose?

Any eye colour? Although I love having blue eyes, I would quite like to have Elizabeth Taylor-esque eyes; violet. They’re so beautiful yet gentle. I think they’d be really nice to have.

Would you rather read people’s minds or be invisible?

I already am invisible (hahaha) so I think definitely reading people’s minds. I would love to know exactly what someone thought of me, because so many people are polite and not knowing what people think of me triggers my anxiety. To know would be to accept.

If you could have dinner with any TV show/book/film character, who would it be?

I don’t really know. Uhhh… Helena from Orphan Black! Because she loves food so would just wolf it down and then she’d call me her sistra and we’d just be cool friends and she’d kill people for me.

Did a historical event happen on your birthday? (doesn’t have to be the year you were born)

I just looked it up and a lot of sad stuff happened on that day. But I’m only going to be talking about positive stuff! 27 May 1943, the ballpoint pen was patented!! Isn’t that cool? 27 May 1937, The Golden Gate Bridge is opened to pedestrian traffic and more than 200,000 pedestrians walked across it! 27 May 1950, Frank Sinatra makes his TV debut on NBC’s “star-spangled review”. A lot of bad stuff happened too but let’s just think of the good stuff!

My Nominees:

I’m really bad at nominating people, especially when they’ve already been nominated, so apologies if you’ve already been nominated (which you probably have been) but I just need to nominate someone, and new questions!

Thewalkofthoughts
ofchocolateandlemons
littlelifeofrachel
mymindspeaksaloud
mintyfreshie
wondrousnightrambler

These are only some nominees, not quite seven, that I just stumbled upon when looking through things but anyone else can do it too!

My Questions

Has anyone ever inspired you to change your life?
Do you believe in superstitions? (If so, which ones?)
Antique or modern?
Paintbrush, pen, or microphone? Which would you pick, and why?
Which of the seven sins best describes you?
If you were told that the world is going to end in a week, what would you do?
Strangest thing that has ever happened to you?

Lia

Vegan Frozen/Fridge Foods

I thought I would do a post outlining different brands that do vegan frozen and fridge foods and which foods are good and which aren’t so good.

I’ve picked five brands which are quite popular food brands. Some are awful and some are amazing.

VBites

I thought I would get the awful over with first. A lot of new vegans are surprised by how ‘real’ this tastes but from the first bite I ever had of their stuff, I was disgusted, if I’m being honest. Quite a few vegans agree with me. Their restaurant is really good though — you should totally go there, but just don’t buy their frozen stuff, unless you like that taste, which would surprise me.

It was founded by Heather Mills, a well-known vegan, after marrying Paul Mccartney (and then divorcing him). I’m not really a fan of her as a person but I’m always a fan of fellow vegans so I thought I’d test it out. It was actually one of the first brands I tested out after becoming vegan. I thought that was what I’d have to get used to for the rest of my life.

The Cheatin’ range sounds like it’s going to be a good alternative to meat, but it is anything but. The slices are awful. 2/10 at best. The other items by Vbites are also as terrible; the meat style isn’t in the style of meat at all, but rather like something else entirely wearing a face mask of meat. And don’t get me started on Cheezly… the first vegan cheeze I ever tried, and I felt sick.

The worst vegan brand out there, in my opinion. Some people do like them but I am not one of them.

Overall, I give them a 2/10, for trying.

Linda McCartney 

Another one of Paul McCartney’s wives, though sadly deceased. Unlike VBites, they aren’t exclusively vegan, but they do quite a few vegan products. Their sausage rolls are lovely, I have to say, but their sausages aren’t quite as good. You can tell that they’re fake, but they are acceptable, and in gravy they are wonderful. Just, not without gravy, in my opinion.

The other day I received wonderful news that a few more vegan dishes are going to be added in the next few weeks, and that really makes me happy. They are supposed to be festive so we can taste them out in time for Christmas. Linda McCartney isn’t a brand I would have everyday, as they aren’t the best ever, but they’re decent, and sometimes that’s all you need.

I give them a 6/10, for sometimes being nice.

Quorn

For a long time, I couldn’t have any Quorn, as none of their stuff was vegan, but when I heard of the addition of a vegan range, eventually, it made me really happy as I had enjoyed their stuff when I was vegetarian.

However, their vegan stuff is generally dry, unflavoursome, and plastic-like. I am not a fan. My mum even tried seasoning up their fillet-styles with some garlic and mushrooms but it didn’t change anything, and garlic is a really strong herb! Their vegan pieces are also not very nice and I am really not a fan of their vegan stuff. Don’t even get me started on the fishless fingers…

Quorn is slightly better than VBites, in that I don’t generally feel sick when having their stuff, so I give them 3/10.

Fry’s

Like VBites, this brand is exclusively vegan, except their food is a little nicer. Their chicken-style burgers are actually one of my favourite burgers to have, as they do taste quite nice. However, not all of their food is that nice. For a while, I was a fan of their chicken-style nuggets, but recently I’ve noticed how plain they are and I’ve gone off of them. Their prawn-style pieces don’t taste a thing like prawn but they are better than the chicken-style nuggets at tasting like chicken! I have them when I want a chicken alternative, not a prawn alternative.

As well as this, their mushroom pies were a favourite of mine for a while. I have also recently gone off of this. I suppose they’re a brand that are good for short-term but you might go off them if you’re into long-term food! My mum actually once mistook curry pies for mushroom pies and I’ve never been a fan of curry pies but I had to have it anyway and I really did not like it, but that’s probably due to my taste.

Fry’s gets a 7/10.

Amy’s

Amy’s is the one on this list where I haven’t tried any of their meat-free ‘meat’ (burgers, in this case). They’re a vegetarian brand, with some vegan products, but gosh, the vegan products that they do are great!

The worst thing I’ve had of theirs is chinese noodles, which is pretty good. Not the best, but decent. I recently had their vegan lasagna for the first time. It was spicy, which I found odd, because no lasagnas I have ever tasted before were spicy. I think it was nice though, but their wasn’t enough cheeze. They should have done more, in my opinion. Next time, I’ll be adding some of my own!

Let me get onto the single-greatest vegan frozen meal I have ever tasted though: their vegan mac n cheeze. I used to have it all the time, until the freezers broke at the place I used to get it from. I was devastated and nowhere else near me did it. Everywhere sold Amy’s, but not the dish I wanted. Recently, I learnt that Ocado did it, and specifically made an order (their minimum requirements are £40) just so I could have it again. I went to lengths so extreme, because it is love.

They say distance makes the heart fonder, and it certainly did for me and this macaroni cheeze. It was just as beautiful as I remembered it, with a cheezy taste so wonderful that it could be compared with non-vegan macaroni cheeses. That macaroni cheeze is a 9/10, would be a 10 if they put it in every shop ever!

Overall, Amy’s is an 8/10, and I think the mac n cheeze brings it up a lot. If you ever want to go vegan, the first food I recommend you try is that.

If you are considering going vegan, Amy’s and Fry’s are good starting points. Linda McCartney is also nice, but I would think about staying clear of Quorn and VBites. But everyone has their own taste. 

Lia